genap 2 bulan.



19 february hri tu genap 2 bulan aq keje kt gsc. byk bnde yg aq blajar. keseronokan besme rakan2 baru & pengalaman yg bru & surrounding yg bru. ibarat aq mempunyai satu chya khidupan yg bru :) kt sni aq jumpe ana, aten, min, wani, zura, iwe, amal, pika, jiyaa, amir, pidot, barak, izzul, cuna, syera. leader2 plak, kak jue, abg hanif, kak bella, kak akmal, sir ayob, khairul. sod, sir isa, sir yazid, sir hisyam, ms noly. tacm, sir zurin & sir hizuan. acm, sir awisch & sir suresh. and manager :D, mr.abbas :). seronok keje dekat situ. mule2 ta rapat, tapi now. ktorg dh mcm belangkas satu sme laen. tak lengkap pegy keje klu ta ckup sorg. hahahah :D and leader yg aq paling rapat is kak jue. sume org kate dy garang, tapi ntah aq wat suke hati aq je. & when i realised something bout her. she had the soft side of her. the soft side that not evryone realise. only me who realised it & who can make her talk softly & mengalah bile dgn aq. yeah, we turn out jadi rapat yg smpi org ckp aq "adik kesayangan" dy. hahaha. *tah pape dorg nie. (=.=') ye lah, dh aq keje asyk stu shift dgn dy, klu aq shft pagi msti balik lwat skit sbb tggu dy dtg keje dlu semate2 sbb nak salam tngan dy dlu bfore blik. ble aq prsan, no wonder why they said that. and keje aq suke myakat dy, mngusik, tman dy wat keje kdg. kdg2 aq keje pagi, dh punch out tp tercongok dkt offce smpi malam sbb tman dy wat keje sorg2. layan dy ckp itu ini. psal sume bnde kitorg borak, smpi dy blh bgtaw sume personal mtter dy dkt aq. mule2 aq agk mcm pelik,mcm mne she can trust me wth all kind of things sbb i'm just her new staff. tp ble pkir blik maybe she need someone to talk, someone who can listen to her. & finally she said she's happy & grateful to hve someone to talk with. i can say i know evvrythng bout her but not all. i dn't need to seek bout it, let her tell me wht it is. :) when i sit with her, sddnly i rmember all those time i loved someone that aq dh aggp mcm kwn baik sndri, kakak sndri. tp what i get is wayy, far away from my expctation. ble someone left me for a while dlu, kak jue is the one who accmpnied me thru out tht time. mule2, i'm scared to epct anythng mre from her. until one day. we had a big argument. me & kak jue. at the bgnning we was only teasing one another, gelak2 suke hati, bergurau. ttbe aq terckp psl org yg dy mmg ta suke thap gila, aq ingt nk maen2 je. dy aggp btul2. then dy wat ayat tacing, and i was like a bit furious when she said smthng. end up dy hntak pntu msuk offce, i sit down at the floor. crying. sheesh (=.=') both of us bwk dri msg2. diam, ta spatah pun kuar. & evryone can sense that smthng is not rite btween us. *ye lah tapenah2 sunyi je BO tu ttbe. (=.=') and i txt her then to say sorry for wht i said earlier & i shld had be aware of her snstvty. she chnged my shft rom nite wth her to morning wth othr prsn. so yeah, i'll not see her anymore. tp mlm tu we txtd, saying wht shld we both know bout each othr feelings. my guilt, her gulit. my regret, her regret. i end up sleeping wth swollen eye & she still thnkng bout wht hppn. *tu lah bahaya suka sngt menjadi duka. :/ aq bgn pagi prgi keje dgn hati kring tde smgt. she txt saying tht we're okay again, she forgive me & she hope i'll still be the one who is very close to her, the one yg dy akan jage hati smpi bila2, the one who undrstnd her, the one who'll be her best friend, the one & only person who will be her closest companion. seriously wth her text, i was touched. i cried out of relieve & grateful. ade jgak org yg btul2 hargai aq smpi mcm tu. org yg sggup text & ckp " akak sayang hanis. akak nak hanis banyak duet sbb keje pagi. akak letak hanis shft pagi bukan sbb akak taknak jumpe hanis. akak klu boleh lagi seronok klu hanis ade keje sme-sme dgn akak. akak hope hanis ta mrajuk ag dgn akak. lpas nie klu weekend kite still blh jumpe en? wlaupown hanis keje pagi, tak bermakne selame2nye hanis takkan jumpe akak. hanis jgn merajuk ag k? akak cume ade owg yg pling rapat & paham akak sowg je.. hanis lah owg nye.. terpulang pada hanis nak buat keputusan lpas nie. akak just hope, hanis akan still jadi kawan baik akak :) " mane mungkin aq sggup lukakan hati org mcm dy. yg sincerely ckp mcm tu dkt aq. yg dh aggp aq mcm smeone to her. tak,takkan aq lukakan hati dy. bile aq duduk termenung, aq terkenang. dlu aq kesal sbb org yg paling aq syg ta heran pown dgn aq. now, ade org yg dtg bgtaw aq dlu. betullah Allah tu Maha Adil & Maha Penyayang. Dia gntikan dgn org laen yg lebih baik insyaAllah. alhamdulillah :') ye, aq sayang kak jue tu. dh cm kakak aq sndri pown ade. org laen pggil dy miss jue, tpi aq selambe pggil dy " akak " je. Ya Allah, terima kasih sbb hadirkan seseorng yang aq aggap dia mcm kawan baik, mcm kakak sndri & dy aggap aq as some who very closed to her & she would never hurt me. same goes to me. and let me tell you guys bout her, dy baik tp garang & tegas. dy kuat jeles skit & kuat tacing sikit. hahahah. kecik molek je org dy, tp klu ganas, hadoyy. pusing kepale layan. (=.=') merajuk dy, mengamuk dy. pening ooh. hahhaha. anyway, dy nie blh kte jiwang la jgak. muehehehe. blh la tu msk kpale aq skit. so sbg pnutup kisah nie, ade stu lagu yg mmg aq dgn dy suke sangat :)

p/s : hari nie ktorg dua-dua offday, sbb nak tgk vanilla coklat (^_^)